I was doing some thinking, (for once in my life...). But, in all seriousness, I've come to the conclusion that I have a very very difficult time making decisions. I'm sure some do and some don't, but I have a very hard time choosing things that I want to do, people I want to see, things I want to eat, the type of music I want to listen to, the type of people I want to surround myself with...wait no, scratch that, I have no problem choosing who I want to surround myself with, that's an easy choice to make. Though it seems like everything else, even little things seem to leave me flustered. However, the decision I'm currently pondering...this decision that I may or may not make...has the ability to change my life...forever. And no, I'm not making it more dramatic than need be, it really will change my life, if I pick a certain option. Part of me wants it, but part of me doesn't, part of me doesn't want to grow up so fast, but another part is yearning to become more mature, and step it up, part of me is ready to deal with the repercussions (if I take a certain option), while the other part knows I'm nowhere near ready to deal with them; part of me wants to make my dreams come true, right here, right now, but the other part knows good and well, that if things go wrong, all my dreams and aspirations will come to a skirting halt. Decisions, decisions, what to do, what to do. Luckily for me, I have time to come to a decision, however, I myself, would like to come to a decision before I'm presented with that pressing question again; before I have to either take action, or sit back and just let things happen...
Wondering what to do,
Nik.
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