ARGH.

Hey there, sorry I’ve been distant. Not really sure why I’ve been distant, actually. I haven’t been too busy now that I think about it. However, I have had homework and what not. I’m currently sitting here, frustrated beyond comprehension. I’m trying to try something new, and really this new thing is going to be very important in the upcoming years, I just can’t seem to get it to work. And this is the 5th or 6th time of me trying this, and I just can’t seem to get it! It’s quite annoying, let me tell you. Plus I’m sitting here waiting for my mom to braid my hair. I start swimming tomorrow and don’t feel like having to deal with doing my hair after it’s all wet, and all that. However, judging by the time (9:08pm) doesn’t look like that’s going to happen. I’m going to end up going to bed frustrated people, ha. Plus, it feels like I’m getting cramps…just great, could tonight get any worse? Nope…don’t think so.

ARGH,

Nik.

Last Night <3!

Hey guys! *Just putting this out there, that this post maybe a quick/short one. Simply because I should be getting dressed, folding clothes, or vacuuming. I’m sure my mom will be reminding me of this sooner or later, ha! Anywho, for the time begin…I’m currently sniffing and sneezing, while sitting in my favorite spot in the house; the mini couch. This is where I frequently blog, fyi. So, last night was by far the highlight of my week! My bestfrand’s birthday was Wednesday, so a couple of my other friends and I took her out to eat at Red Robin’s! While we were eating, a lovely young man from our local performing arts school talked/sang to us, he also smelled like my favorite scent: Abercrombie & Fitch cologne; can’t get any better than that, lol! After dinner we than proceeded to see Fame, which was the BEST movie I’ve seen in awhile. I’m telling you guys, we wanted to break out and dance right there in the theater! Now that I think about it, I think some people actually did, lol! After the movie we went across the street to Maggie Moo’s, that sells the BEST darn ice cream. Their giving Cold Stone a run for their money, at least in my opinion. I got the Ice Cream Coffee Smoothie; AMAZING. However, it was FREEZING out; so cold ice cream + cold weather = sick Nicole, lol. So, Olivia, Sierra, and I decided that to keep warm we’d jerk. Lemme tell you, our jerking was on point (the dance, mind you!) Anyone else like the song “Your a Jerk” by: New Boyz? Anyways, I really enjoyed myself last night. Being around friends, and just having fun and laughing was great. It was a great way to end my long week of school. However, I’m afraid I have to go. My mom finally realized that I haven’t finished my chores…told you, haha!

Wishing you a happy Saturday,

Nik.

I’m Ready to Lose it.

I feel like I could just lose it right now. Not particularly breaking down, (however, that is included, lol). But just lose everything; my sanity, my morals, everything that means anything to everyone and their expectations on me. I just want to lose all of that. I want to become a different person. I’m not who they want me to be. I was actually thinking about this on the bus after school today. You know how you just sudden realize something? Well that’s basically what happened to me; I suddenly came to the realization that I’m never going to be able to live up the standards everyone has placed on me. Sorry, for the venting session, just had to get something's off my mind.

 

I’m challenging all of you to think about this; Are you living the life you want to live? Are you striving for your goals, or someone else’s? Fulfill what you want to do, don’t ever allow someone to steal your dreams. If you want something you have to go after it. And you can’t expect everyone to be on board with you, sometimes reaching your goal means leaving some people behind. So decide who you’re living for; yourself, or someone else.

Distracted,

Nik.

The 411: 9/24/09

So, I’m sitting here listening to my father talk, and maybe it’s just me but I feel belittled? I just feel like the way he talks to me is making me feel incompetent? Now, we’ve NEVER had a good relationship. I mean there are plenty of times where we get along, but those aren’t frequent. I just can’t connect with him like I can connect with the rest of my family. Probably because he isn’t the same with me when he’s around the rest of my family. Like he’ll hold a conversation with one of my cousins, but when I’m trying to talk to him, he has no interest. Which is probably why I don’t take what he says serious. All these promises and things he wants to do, I just let go in one ear and out the other. Doesn’t matter to me either way, because they’ll probably never come to the light. I’m just ready for college, I’m ready for a new outlook on life. I’m so desperately longing to live the life I’ve always wanted to. Where is the fast forward button on life when you need it?

It’s been a long week, thank the Lord tomorrow is Friday! I’ll be spending my Friday night with my girls. We’re taking Adrienne out for her birthday. Saturday is some concert their going to, but I won’t be attending that. Basically that’s it, I should be studying for my “Elements Quiz” tomorrow for Chemistry, don’t really feel like it though. (I mean who ever feels like studying?!) And wouldn’t you know it, my Chemistry teacher feels I should be placed back in Honors Chemistry! He says the way I’m working, and the grades I’m getting show I need to be “challenged”. Guess switching was a waste; either way he’s going to be “evaluating” me, and than he’ll make his decision later on. Oh, and I have an appointment with my neurologist Monday, hopefully everything goes well.

<---This picture made me smile! I was searching for a picture to add to my blog, and came across this one. I’m not sure why, but when I saw this I couldn’t help but smile. Hope it has the same effect on you!

However, I’ll have to catch you all on the flip side, lol! And remember to smile because things are never really as bad as they seem!

Optimistic,

Nik.

Why Do You Hate Me So?

So, I’m sitting here trying to figure out why the world is so cold. Why the world is so ruthless? Why the world can careless about your feelings, or what you’re going through; the world only cares about itself. As long as the world is fine, than nothing else matters. The world is one of the most selfish things I’ve ever known. However, I can’t say that the world and I never got along. The world and I were best buddies. I had his back, but it seems he wasn’t willing to return that favor. The world was my right-hand companion, we were like two peas in a pod. Now the world and I are like my pinky and thumb, like swimming in the winter. It just blows my mind, how the world will chew and spit you out. How, it’ll trip you up, and not even glance back to see how badly you’re bruised up. It’s funny because no one else is quite like the world! The world doesn’t need to say anything for you to realize that you’re not wanted. The world doesn’t need to stare you down, for you to realize that he hates you. The world doesn’t need to talk bad behind your back, for you to realize he could careless about what you hear him say. The world doesn’t need to do anything out of the ordinary to break you. And yet, we still find ourselves running back to it over, and over, and over again. The world is defiantly one of kind. 

*Below you’ll see a poem I wrote way back when. It’s funny, I took the world back, knowing how horrible he was, knowing how badly I would be hurt again from him, and what happened? Fell right back on my butt, where I should have stayed. Oh how quickly things can change! And before you realize it, you’re right back at square one; right where you started.

 

The world needed me, and I needed it.
Scratch that.
I needed it, but it didn't need me.
Ever hear the saying "The world stops for no one?"
I've learned that first hand, as I'm sure many of you will or have learned.
The world is a cold place.
Ready to hear all your secrets, than spill them for everyone to know.
Ready to praise you when you've done right, than turn it's back when you've screwed up.
But play your cards right, and you might make it out alive.
Always remember this:
The world doesn't need me.
And it doesn't need you.
But we need it.
Funny how life works out isn't it?
-NDM-
*Written 11/18/08

Waiting on the world to change,

Nik.

Can I Grow Up…Please?

You know what I find funny? How much parents aren’t willing to allow us to grow up. I mean, I know they have our best interests in mind, and that they only want the best for us. But sometimes they smother us…at least mine do. I’m knocking on 16, and I’m still finding myself having to hide my relationships, and act like I’m this innocent little school girl who’s never had a boyfriend or a first kiss. Newsflash, I’m no longer 10. I know boys do not have cooties, and that kissing is not nasty. However, I find myself having to hide this. My parents find it hard to accept that I actually have guy friends. How do you think they’re going to accept me having a boyfriend? It just frustrated me a little. Seeing how my dad almost lost his temper when a boy came by to PICK UP A HOMEWORK ASSIGMENT from my younger sister, crazy right? What would happen if I brought home my boyfriend? He’d be dead, lol. So, mom and dad, CHILL OUT. We have to grow up sometime! I mean, when I have to sneak around, it doesn’t make me feel good; I know that I’m going behind their backs, but it’s the only thing I can do at this present time. It’s almost like they don’t trust me enough to make the right choices in a relationship. Little do they know, I’ve had a good share of relationships, and dealt with more than I’ve wanted. It’s a shame, I probably won’t be able to tell them that for awhile. My mom feels I shouldn’t date until I’m a junior, I don’t think I can wait that long…Come to think of it I haven’t waited that long. I had my first boyfriend in 4th grade, ha! I just wish I could introduce them to my future boyfriends, because I’m sick of sneaking around. It’s annoying and no fun. And they wonder why our communication is lacking? That’s why…because you guys aren’t open-minded! Open your eyes and realize, I’m not a little girl anymore. I don’t need your permission to grow up, and become who I’m longing to be. I’ll do this with or without you guys, but of course I want you on board with me! I love you both, but don’t smother me.

 

Anybody else’s parents smothering them? Or you guys just can’t seem to communicate well? Speak up, tell them about it, and then share your story with me. I’ll all ears!

Trying to spread my wings,

Nik.

BORING.

“I’m a puzzle, yes indeed; and all the pieces aren’t even in the box…and yet, you see the picture clear as day.” Anyone want to take a wild guess as to who sings those lyrics? (Post in a comment if you know, NO CHEATING!) Anywho, hello all, lol! I thought I’d shake things up a little tonight, it’s around 11:08…hey that’s my birthday, ha! Not much to talk about. But than I say that and than end up blogging a million words, ha. This time though, I really don’t have much to say. I guess I can say that I’m currently wearing a brace on my right hand, which is making typing 10x harder. I have to wear this thing for a good while due to the carpal tunnel in my hand. Other than that, I really don’t know what else there is to say…Sorry to bore you guys, this post was basically useless? I’m lacking inspiration for this post, I sorta feel like I’m overwhelmed? However there really isn’t anything to be overwhelmed with? It’s just this weird pressing feeling I have…like I feel like I should be doing something, or like I’m anxious for something to happen. Yet again, sorry for the boring post, just thought I’d try and start typing and things would flow from there, but it didn’t work out that way this time. I’ll try again tomorrow…

Saying goodnight,

Nik.

Let’s be Study Buddies.

Hey there! So, quick question…everyone is back in school by now correct? Well is it just me or is school crazy! I have spent the last two nights (Tuesday and Wednesday) studying like nobody’s business. I literally cannot fit anything else into my brain, for fear of it exploding all the information I’ve stuffed into it. Tomorrow I have all of three tests, Spanish, Chemistry, and lastly Honors US History…In that order, lol! I should have taken my history test today, but my lovely ramble, scatter-brained teacher decided to push it to tomorrow for unknown reasons? So, that caused me to have to work reviewing into my already packed study schedule. However, I guess it was a blessing in disguise! I need strength for sure, and forgiveness. It blows my mind how forgiving GOD is! I mean, even I’m not that forgiving, and trust me, I’m pretty darn forgiving. (Or so I was told from a former friend of mine). I’m just glad he’s able to look past everything if we only ask! Moving along though, I have a new follower! That brings us to six followers, YAY! I’m getting there, my goal right now is to reach ten followers before Christmas! It’s funny though all the blogs I’ve read & (some) that I’m currently following seem to be about fashion, art, music, and things of that nature. I’m defiantly not knocking it, because I absolutely love reading about the latest fashions and music. It just seems like my blog is out of place? So it means a lot to me that people find my blog different and interesting! I appreciate everything guys, the comments, the encouragement, everything! I love you all. 

I’ll check in tomorrow, if time permits!

Exhausted,

Nik.

Gaze into the Future…

I’ve returned! Let me apologize now, for the post underneath this post I’m currently writing. I wrote that to, two boys, however, I didn’t mean to take up my blog space with that. I might delete it later, but knowing me…probably won’t. That night was a disgrace, I wish things hadn’t happened that way. I really do, and now that I look back at it, and have had time to reflect upon it…what was the point of all that? What is the point of all this fighting between the three of us? Yeah, she’s dating my ex-boyfriend, but so what, lol! That shouldn’t mean we can’t be friends! Maybe it’d be a little awkward, but it’s better than nothing. It’s probably WAY too late for us to become friends, but we should be able to stand being in the same school with one another. That conversation from Saturday got me thinking…It just sparked my interest about everything, is all. I’m really just completely finished with the whole situation, and it’s taken until now for me to really realize that I am at peace with all that happened, and what is still going to happen between us.

Moving on though…today has been a good day. Not much to really report. Ryan and I swapped numbers, YAY! I haven’t texted him yet, that’s in the making. Danta, and I broke up yesterday, it was a mutual thing. However, he doesn’t seem to understand that and seems to be trying to convince me to give him another chance. I’m pretty much finished with long distance relationships though. They never workout in my favor. I just don’t think I’ve been in a strong enough relationship that can withstand the strain of not seeing each other, or talking everyday. Other than all that, nothing else is up. I’m just relaxing, enjoying my homework(less) evening. But I wanted to let you know how things were going, and to apologize for the letter to the young men. I’m really enjoying this font btw, I’ve defiantly fallen in love with it, I think I’ve found the font for the rest of my blogs, YAY! Throw a smile on your face for me guys, cause I’m realizing that things aren’t always going to go the way you expect them to, or want them for that matter. You just have to take life as it comes, and enjoy what you can. Life is what you make it, if you don’t do anything with your life-if you don’t go out for that team, or sing in that play, or talk to that guy/girl-when are you planning to? Just live life to it’s fullest, not tomorrow, not next week, TODAY. I’ve also realized that I defiantly want to become a psychiatrist, a pediatric neuropsychiatric to be exact; which is someone who studies organic causes for mental symptomology and disorders in children. If that doesn’t work though, I’ll just be a plain ol’ child psychiatrist. Anyway…I feel like that’s my calling; to do unto others, that which wasn’t done for me. I want to save a little girl’s life, or place a little boy on the right path. I want to make a difference in someone’s life, even if that means devoting my life and time to do so. That’s my plan, just have to stay on the right path, to get my dreams! Boy, am I excited for what the future and GOD have in store for me!

Pondering the future,

Nik.

This One’s For You Sweetheart!

Hello boys and girls. Since I seem to have some readers who are young and immature, I’ll be addressing you all this way tonight. Oh and did I mention they were a bit arrogant? So, my previous entry talked about having a feeling tonight was going to be a good night...However, I was wrong, very, very wrong. I can’t say the whole night was a flop, because it surely wasn’t. The movie was very good, along with the company in which I saw it with. However, things went south when I got a certain phone call, from a certain person. I won’t say any names, since I know you both will probably read this once you leave the Hess gas station from which I received your lovely call. (That’s right, I happened to be riding past there, and saw your lovely faces!) Apparently, I’m accused of wanting to “break Navea`’s legs?” I really can’t believe what just happened. Really now boys, really? I mean, Eric your excuse was LAME. If you really didn’t want to start anything with me, you should of done more to stop your friend from calling. I know you didn’t really think I was just going to let you guys go off on me. I’ve been nothing but nice to you and Navea` during all this. Yeah, I talk about you on my blog, but it’s MY blog, this is where I come to vent and share what I’m feeling. IF YOU DON’T LIKE IT, THAN DON’T READ IT. Go ahead, no one is over there making you read anything. I’m not slandering you, or bashing you. I’m just saying what I feel. I guess you and your pal haven’t read any of my past entries uh? I don’t have to explain anything to either of you. Like I told you on the phone, I bare no ill will toward either of you, the day I wrote that I’d ROCK Navea` was the day I bumped into the both of you being all lovey dovey in the hallways. I was pissed off, so I blogged…SUE ME. Either way, if I was going to actually do something I would of done something a long time ago dear, believe that. At this point though, I’m just surprised from the phone call. I defiantly DO NOT need your friend calling me, so I’m asking in the nicest way possible: screw off leave me alone. And Eric, learn from this. Really I’m finished with you, I was finished with you the minute I heard you were going out with Navea`. It may not have seemed like it, but hey, I was hurt. And we both knew we weren’t going to come out from this relationship unscarred. Just drop it and move on, I’m over all this. You’ve got a girlfriend, focus on her. I’ve got a boyfriend, I’m focusing on him. And again, if you don’t like what I have to say in my blog, if you don’t want to hear about what I have to say…DO NOT READ MY BLOG…BECAUSE NEWSFLASH, THIS IS MY BLOG. I’LL WRITE WHAT THE HECK I WANT TO. SO TAKE YOUR “CUROSITY” SOMEWHERE ELSE, YOU HAVE SOMETHING YOU NEED TO ASK, TOO BAD. This is going out to anyone that reads my blog, you don’t like something I write, or if I’m too “real” for you, let me apologize up front. Cause my blog is and always will be REAL and UNCUT. I’m going to say what I feel and if anyone doesn’t like that, you are more than welcome to click that X button at the top right hand corner of your screen, BE MY GUEST. I was actually thinking about changing my URL just to eliminate any way of you lovely boys reading it. But I’ve nothing to hide, which is why I set up this blog. So, either you read my blog and like it, or you STOP reading it. Cause me and my blog aren’t going anywhere. So stick that in your cup and SUCK ON IT.

Tense,

Nik.

I Gotta Feeling…

…that tonight’s gonna be a good night, that tonight’s gonna be a good good night! Ha, hey everyone. Just like my title and the first sentence of my blog states I got a feeling tonight’s gonna be a kick butt night! Why do you say that Nicole? Well, for one me and a bunch of friends are going out to the movies to see the new Tyler Perry movie “I Can Do Bad All By Myself”. I’m super excited, it’s always fun going out with all my friends. Especially since we’ve all grown up together, we get along well and can relate to each other. Gotta love the best friends! Plus I’m beginning to feel better, my cold doesn’t seem too bad anymore…just congested and a nagging headache, other than that I’m good! Just wanted to check in though, there isn’t really anything to report. Oh, I have this program on my laptop where I can edit my blog posts without having to “make” the posts on blogger.com first. I can write and edit my posts from the program, and than publish them to my blog. That way I change the font, and add cool stuff. So be on the lookout for a new style for my blog which should be coming soon (it’s in the making, I just have to play around with it)! However, that’s it…if anything arises you know you guys will be the first to know! I have to go get ready for the movies.

Heading out,

Nik.

September 11, 2001 </3

       

On September 11, 2001 two planes crashed into the Twin Towers. Along with another plane crashing into the Pentagon, and lastly one in Pennsylvania. I remember it like it was yesterday, sitting in class during 2nd grade, I’ll never forget it. However, I’d like to honor all those men and women who volunteered their time and effort to help those from the tragic events of 9/11. I’d also like to send my prayers of comfort to all the families who lost innocent loved ones from this terrible act of violence. This is an event that will stick with all of us forever, it’s forever etched in our memories, and history. We miss and love you guys, you left too soon; you’re gone but not forgotten.

I wanna make love not war, what are we fighting for? What am I trying for? My heart is dying, I’m crying, cause I wanna make love, not war; where is the love?

My thoughts are all jumbled!

I find myself procrastinating. I'm not sure why, but I can't really bring myself to just focus on one thing. I'm realizing that I have a problem paying attention to anything that severally bores, me.

What I really should be doing at this point in time is my parody for Honors US History, but since I couldn't focus, I decided, what better way is there to get my thoughts and emotions together...but to BLOG! So, here I am...I think I'm just gonna list the things on my mind, than decide what I can deal with or change now, and the other things I can just leave for another time...here goes nothing.

*Navea & Eric; Better left unsaid (just kidding) I'll deal with it now...I sorta feel like you're reading this Eric? Don't think I've forgotten that I gave you my URL when we had that momentary lasp of friendship. Part of me wants to know for sure whether or not you read this. In a way, I'm sorta hoping you do, but than again I'm hoping you don't. Either way it doesn't really matter, cause you'll read it whether I want you to or not, just like you always used to, lol! I have so many questions I want to ask you, which surprises even me, ha. However, I'm never going to ask them, because I don't want to speak to you, ever. It's funny how we'd always say that, yet now it's become reality, crazy. I'm good though, I really am. Just keep your distance, Budd.
*One of my godfathers: Alex & his now dead mother; Alex, I'm so sorry, I know it was unexpected it shocked us all, but things are gonna be alright, we got you. However, I'm basically numb to death now, I have no more feelings toward it, this past year I've gone to more funerals than I ever want to again, I'm just so done with all of it. My grandparents have been gone for almost a year now and I still blame myself, can't seem to get over it, guess that brings me to my next point?
*My Grandparents; You both got sick so suddenly after I left you, I'll always question what would of happened if I'd come back like I had planned; whether it was my fault or not. Bottom line...I miss you guys, you left too soon.
*Danta; We just talked after not speaking to each other for a good week and a half? I understand now that you were on punishment and couldn't contact me, but this is exactly why I didn't want to be in a long distance relationship in the first place. Next time we talk, I'm breaking up with you. I tried to last time, but just didn't seem right, you really need to just let me go, cause I've already cut the rope; fall.
*Ryan; Ah, Ryan. Where have you been for the past 10 years of my life? Right freaking beside me! I've known you since Kindergarten buddy, and now we're in our sophomore year of high school, and I'm just coming to a realization as to how cute you are! I always thought you had a crush on me, and found it cute, but I never had a crush on you...that's all coming to an end. I'm still a little confused about how I feel, but I defiantly know you're a cutie, and have a very nice smile. I know your shy, and that's all good, I like guys that are shy like me, that way nothings forced. I'm gonna make the first move this time, and I'll let things go from there, ha.
*Student Youth Council; Okay, so at first I felt left out that I wasn't apart of the SYC, but now I'm thinking I'm in over my head? A Chaplain, really? I think I may need to reconsider all this, hopefully it's not too late!
*Parody; Alright, it's just you and me, mister parody. I should have been writing you, instead of sitting here blogging, I know. However, I'm gonna need you to cooperate and help me get you finished. Now that my thoughts aren't all jumbled up in my head, I should be able to focus, so after this, you will now have my undivided attention, lol.

Okay, sorry everyone for the extended ranting session, but I really had to get all my thoughts straight and in order. It defiantly worked, I don't feel like everything is overtaking me anymore, it was quick (well maybe not quick), but it helped! If you're ever feeling overwhelmed or just have a lot on your mind, jot somethings down that are irking you. It'll help you vent, and decide what you can fix and deal with now, or things you have to overcome or deal with at a later time.

Well I'm off to actually start my parody for Honors US History, my goal is to be done before 6:30, it's now 5:45...READY, SET, GO!

"Don't worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring it's own worries. Today's trouble is enough for today."
-Matthew 6:34
(^^) <-- ain't that the truth?!

Un-jumbled,
Nik.

Watch yourself honey.

Hey there! Yet again, I have to apologize for my lack of posts. I've been pretty busy with school. Summer is defiantly over, school is in FULL SWING, lol! It's been going pretty well though, my classes are going very good, and my study habits have defiantly improved, which is a plus. To be honest, I've been having some serious writer's block. Which is what I'm putting the blame on for posts; or lack there of. Not quite sure why though, like even before I started this post, I had to force myself to even click the "New Post" link, crazy right?

Anywho, I'm heading to the neurologist at the end of the month, I'm so glad too, because the headaches have been more frequent, and haven't been slacking up; plus the meds aren't doing JACK...So off I go, to get tests done and all that jazz. I'm not all that nervous, though my Grandfather did have a cancerous tumor on his brain at one point, and has to take meds for that everyday, plus my dad was in the hospital for weeks after a blood vessel burst inside his head, when I was younger...so that makes me alittle nervous that I may have some genetic thing.

Yeah, that's basically it, I guess...not one of my more exciting posts, I know. Well I'm going to my high school's 1st football game of the season tonight, that should be exciting! I'm hoping our football team can go farther than it did last year, I'm STOKED for this up and coming football season! Oh, did I tell you I'm starting swim team this year? I'm alittle nervous, cause I've never actually swam competitively, but I swam when I was younger, and enjoy doing it, so I decided to do preseason. So starting September 8th, I'll officially be in swim mode. So that'll be something new, plus it'll help me stay in shape/get ready for track and field this summer.

Oh, and you know what's funny? I've started seeing them more than ever. I mean, I'm talking seeing them together EVERY FREAKING DAY. I just thought that was too funny, like really? EVERYDAY?! It's just this weird feeling I get when I see them together, its like a hate/pity/angry feeling. Part of me is hoping their happy with their relationship, yet the other part of me is hoping to see it fail, because it basically sucks the way things went down between us. I'm still trying to grasp the thought of losing my BESTFRIEND over a lousy boy? Really Navea`? I'd never expect that of you, never ever, I'm talking not in a million years. But I guess I should have seen the signs when you went out with Stephen. I didn't mind that cause he wasn't my 1st love, but still you never once talked to me about that, didn't even see how I felt that you were dating one of my ex's? I would of come to you if I liked one of your ex's. OH WAIT! I FORGOT...MY OPINION DOESN'T MATTER...WELL YOU KNOW WHAT TRICK? FREAKING KICK ROCKS W/MY SLOPPY SECONDS.

And if you're reading this honey, that (^^) is what I'd say to you if you tried to step to me. And please believe that if you step to me...you fittin' to get ROCKEd. So, keep running your mouth honey, keep swapping spit with Eric, and acting like you don't see me walking by you in the hallways, cause shady crappy things like what you guys did won't last long; "what's done in the dark, comes to the light..."

Ha, well that's what was on my mind, just had to get it all out, I feel much better now...I'm defiantly sick of not being able to speak my mind when I want to though. Like being afraid of what others may think of what I've got to say...that's gonna change, best believe that.

Feeling confident,
Nik.