Poems from the "Back in the Day".

Happy Happy, Joy Joy
Happiness. What does it really mean? Is it a feeling you get from another person? Is it a feeling you get when you buy something new? Is it a feeling you get from listening to a song? Or is it a feeling you get from inside? What is happiness? Do you know? Because I sure don't. Maybe only certain people "get" happiness. Maybe I'm not one of those "people." Maybe I can't "feel happiness." Maybe I can't "understand happiness" But does this make me "different?" An "outsider?" Because I'd rather not "understand, or feel happiness" then, pretend to "understand and feel it." Wouldn't you?
-NDM-

*Written 10/07/07*

Choose
Sometimes I just want to DIE. To just end it all. "You know how easy that would be?" He whispers to me. "Just a few pills." "Just one shot." "Just one rope. "Yeah, maybe He's right? But maybe He's not? "No, Nicole, don't listen to Him." "He doesn't know what He's talking about." The Other Man says to me. "OH PLEASE! I KNOW YOUR NOT TALKING, YOUR THE ONE WHO PUTS HER THROUGH THOSE HARD TIMES!" He shouts to the Other Man. "But those are to make her stronger, to help her grow. She just needs to hold on, and stand strong, for those trials will soon be over." The Other Man says back. "She can't wait much longer, she's been through enough..right Nicole?" He asks me."Nicole trust me, this all shall pass. "Who do I trust, this Man that speaks of hope? Or Him, the one who speaks of an easy way out? "CAN SOMEBODY HELP ME?!" My mind, it can't take this. This hurt, this killing of my soul, it'd be real easy to just end IT. But this hope, this faith that that Man spoke of sounds hopeful. It would give me something to live for, something to look toward.
"...So Nicole, what will it be?"
-NDM-

*Written 10/04/07*

Need Some Help
Do you need help? Do I need help? Yes? No? So many people need help in so many ways. And so many people can help in so many ways. But do We? No. Instead We go around, hurting, killing, and spoiling people's dreams. Why? Why do We do that, instead of simply helping? That is something I have, and always will wonder. I wonder when We'll change. The sooner the better. "Right?"Or maybe not? Either way, something must happen, someone MUST DO SOMETHING! But then again, nobody cares.
Nobody cares if your hurting.
Nobody cares if your dying.
Nobody cares.
Nobody cares anymore.
-NDM-

*Written 10/03/07*

Hint Hint
People can't seem to get a hint. When I want you to leave me alone, I mean it. And when I need you, I mean that too. But, people seem to get those mixed up. They seem to want to be with me, when I want to be alone. And They leave me alone, when I need Them. Hm. That makes me wonder...Will They ever get it together?
-NDM-

*Written 10/06/07*