Before I even say anything, let me apologize! I’m so sorry about the lack of posts, its been almost 2 weeks if I remember correctly? Things have been so hectic, and it’s not that I haven’t been on the site, it’s that I just haven’t had the time, energy, or want to simply sit still and blog. And even as I sit here, I have a horrible headache, and don’t even feel like continuing this, but I will, because I have followers and I can’t let you guys down…But of course, my laptop decides it wants to be slow today, what in the world is going on?
Anywho, I’ve been good. Just busy with school and whatnot. I’ve been preparing for track and field which will take place in the Spring. I’m excited because we’ll be getting a new coach, and that’s always nice to get a new face, and see what different things they have to bring to the team; I’m excited for this new season, it's going to be a good one!
Ah, I never told you how my birthday weekend went, did I? My Bad, ha! But my birthday weekend was amazing, I have all the pictures, laughs, and memories; especially when the microwave caught on fire (long story)! If I could, I’d redo that weekend over and over and over…if only I had the chance! Those girls have my heart. I know we’re gonna be bestfriends forever. I mean, I know I’ve said that about a lot of people, but they defiantly will be in my life forever. However, I have been let down numerous times, but it’s all a learning process.
I’m learning to accept the fact that not everyone is meant to be in your life for long. That you need to be hurt, and abandoned so that you learn to stand firmly on your own two feet. Life is about learning. You needed to learn how to walk, learn how to talk, learn how to make friends, learn how to learn. Life is a process, a process we are forever perfecting, and critiquing.
Hm, I also heard some interesting news yesterday. I was actually shocked when I heard this, I didn’t see it coming you could say…because they seemed so happy to me; when I saw them in the halls, and at the pep rally. But I guess that wasn’t the case, Eric and Navea (I’m sure you remember from previous blog entries) broke up this past weekend at Navea’s sweet 16 party. My source said Eric broke up with her during her party, which I find COLD! But knowing him, it had to be for a GOOD reason. Because I know he can be mean at times (but we all can be), but I know for a fact he wouldn’t embarrass her like that purposely. Even though I personally don’t like Navea, I felt bad for her, it’s like a natural instinct for girls to feel bad for other girls went a guy breaks up with them…because we know how it feels. And no matter how tough the girl tries to act after the fact, it doesn’t soothe the sting any less. But hey, maybe that was her karma. Normally I don’t believe in karma, but I strongly feel like that’s what it was. What goes around, comes around honey. But, honestly I hope things between you two don’t go completely sour, you both aren’t bad people, so I hope things work out!
Moving on though, there’s this new kid in school! Named Dexter, but he goes by Orlando...Anyway, he’s been smiling at me all the time during choir, and we talk a lot between classes when we see each, like he’ll come to my locker and than walk me to lunch, and DOUBLE BACK to where his class is…so he’s going out of the way to walk me, which is SWEET. I’m still confused on whether or not he’s just being friendly or if he likes me. My friends are convinced he’s into me, but I’M not convinced yet. Simply because he’s really friendly with the other girls in our gym/choir period. So, we’ll see. Eli and I no longer “talk” (like in a way, that we would get together). He wasn’t looking for a girlfriend, just someone to mess around with, yet he would still treat me like his girl? (yeah, I’m confused too, isn’t that just like the whole boyfriend/girlfriend thing?) Either way, I wasn’t trying to have that, so I had to let that go…
Other than ALL of that, nothing has really been going on. Just school, school, and more school. I hope things with all of you are going well, comment and keep me posted on your lives, and I promise to do better blogging!
Keep smiling,
Nik.
eepover at a Marriott hotel with my bestfriends, and than kickin’ it with my other friends that Saturday night. Sunday I’m gonna spend with my family of course, but I’m super excited. We’ve been doing nothing but running around all week, getting things ready for Friday night and with school/homework and “Spirit Week” going on, for the big game against our rival school Saturday afternoon, I haven’t had time to just sit down and blog; it’s a mess I know.
inking about writing a book. I truly want to, I just have to find the time to sit down and focus my thoughts. And honestly when I think about how much work it’ll be, it threatens to scares me out of even trying to write one, but it’s something I’ve always wanted to do, and I have the talent, I just need to figure out the plot, characters, and all that jazz. Maybe it’ll be a memoir? Or a mystery? But more than likely it’ll be something completely different, and all my own! I’ll keep you guys posted on my progress on that, lol. I’m actually feeling like I’m getting something…like the opening page or something! It’s like this funny feeling I get in my head, when a poem or something is about to fly out. It’s weird, but it’s a sign, that if I keep typing, something deep and inspiring is about to stream out!
expected of me. Why, I always end up doing this, I’m not sure? My former friend was right when he said I was “too forgiving”. Because I defiantly do not treat her the way she made it seem. I feel like she was just getting a tad bit jealous, or it’s more likely that it’s because we’re together 24/7, it’s only normal that we would get on each other’s nerves, but come on now honey, you need to calm down. Everything is “fine” between us now…but I NEVER forget what goes down. I’ve squashed the drama, but the memory is forever etched into my noggin, so choose carefully what you want me to remember dears!
this song with my everything, it’s been “replaying” on my iPod since this morning, haha! It defiantly describes my current love life as well; ELI <3. I love you honey. You’re such a sweetheart! We’re not together yet, but we’re talking daily, which always keeps a smile on my face, and has me laughing non-stop. I enjoy being with him, so he’s defiantly “…like a melody in my head, that I can’t keep out!”
highlight of my week! My bestfrand’s birthday was Wednesday, so a couple of my other friends and I took her out to eat at Red Robin’s! While we were eating, a lovely young man from our local performing arts school talked/sang to us, he also smelled like my favorite scent: Abercrombie & Fitch cologne; can’t get any better than that, lol! After dinner we than proceeded to see Fame, which was the BEST movie I’ve seen in awhile. I’m telling you guys, we wanted to break out and dance right there in the theater! Now that I think about it, I think some people 
actually did, lol! After the movie we went across the street to Maggie Moo’s, that sells the BEST darn ice cream. Their giving Cold Stone a run for their money, at least in my opinion. I got the Ice Cream Coffee Smoothie; AMAZING. However, it was FREEZING out; so cold ice cream + cold weather = sick Nicole, lol. So, Olivia, Sierra, and I decided that to keep warm we’d jerk. Lemme tell you, our jerking was on point (the dance, mind you!) Anyone else like the song “Your a Jerk” by: New Boyz? Anyways, I really enjoyed myself last night. Being around friends, and just having fun and laughing was great. It was a great way to end my long week of school. However, I’m afraid I have to go. My mom finally realized that I haven’t finished my chores…told you, haha! 
like I can connect with the rest of my family. Probably because he isn’t the same with me when he’s around the rest of my family. Like he’ll hold a conversation with one of my cousins, but when I’m trying to talk to him, he has no interest. Which is probably why I don’t take what he says serious. All these promises and things he wants to do, I just let go in one ear and out the other. Doesn’t matter to me either way, because they’ll probably never come to the light. I’m just ready for college, I’m ready for a new outlook on life. I’m so desperately longing to live the life I’ve always wanted to. Where is the fast forward button on life when you need it? 
<---This picture made me smile! I was searching for a picture to add to my blog, and came across this one. I’m not sure why, but when I saw this I couldn’t help but smile. Hope it has the same effect on you!
What would happen if I brought home my boyfriend? He’d be dead, lol. So, mom and dad, CHILL OUT. We have to grow up sometime! I mean, when I have to sneak around, it doesn’t make me feel good; I know that I’m going behind their backs, but it’s the only thing I can do at this present time. It’s almost like they don’t trust me enough to make the right choices in a relationship. Little do they know, I’ve had a good share of relationships, and dealt with more than I’ve wanted. It’s a shame, I probably won’t be able to tell them that for awhile. My mom feels I shouldn’t date until I’m a junior, I don’t think I can wait that long…Come to think of it I haven’t waited that long. I had my first boyfriend in 4th grade, ha! I just wish I could introduce them to my future boyfriends, because I’m sick of sneaking around. It’s annoying and no fun. And they wonder why our communication is lacking? That’s why…because you guys aren’t open-minded! Open your eyes and realize, I’m not a little girl anymore. I don’t need your permission to grow up, and become who I’m longing to be. I’ll do this with or without you guys, but of course I want you on board with me! I love you both, but don’t smother me. 
for unknown reasons? So, that caused me to have to work reviewing into my already packed study schedule. However, I guess it was a blessing in disguise! I need strength for sure, and forgiveness. It blows my mind how forgiving GOD is! I mean, even I’m not that forgiving, and trust me, I’m pretty darn forgiving. (Or so I was told from a former friend of mine). I’m just glad he’s able to look past everything if we only ask! Moving along though, I have a new follower! That brings us to six followers, YAY! I’m getting there, my goal right now is to reach ten followers before Christmas! It’s funny though all the blogs I’ve read & (some) that I’m currently following seem to be about fashion, art, music, and things of that nature. I’m defiantly not knocking it, because I absolutely love reading about the latest fashions and music. It just seems like my blog is out of place? So it means a lot to me that people find my blog different and interesting! I appreciate everything guys, the comments, the encouragement, everything! I love you all. 
wanted to let you know how things were going, and to apologize for the letter to the young men. I’m really enjoying this font btw, I’ve defiantly fallen in love with it, I think I’ve found the font for the rest of my blogs, YAY! Throw a smile on your face for me guys, cause I’m realizing that things aren’t always going to go the way you expect them to, or want them for that matter. You just have to take life as it comes, and enjoy what you can. Life is what you make it, if you don’t do anything with your life-if you don’t go out for that team, or sing in that play, or talk to that guy/girl-when are you planning to? Just live life to it’s fullest, not tomorrow, not next week, TODAY. 
I’ve also realized that I defiantly want to become a psychiatrist, a pediatric neuropsychiatric to be exact; which is someone who studies organic causes for mental symptomology and disorders in children. If that doesn’t work though, I’ll just be a plain ol’ child psychiatrist. Anyway…I feel like that’s my calling; to do unto others, that which wasn’t done for me. I want to save a little girl’s life, or place a little boy on the right path. I want to make a difference in someone’s life, even if that means devoting my life and time to do so. That’s my plan, just have to stay on the right path, to get my dreams! Boy, am I excited for what the future and GOD have in store for me!
