Hello...I am currently laying across my couch, watching TV, and thinking; it's quite relaxing. My day was quite the day, I actually went to my ex-best friend's with one of my best friends, and it was the most award thing that I have ever experienced. Why would I even go over there you ask? Well, I was trying to make things right, I wanted to see if she felt any remorse toward what she is putting me through, and she is. She barely spoke to me; directly, and she couldn't bring herself to look me in the eye. That made me feel good...now before you start judging me, sit in the neutral corner and listen to the story first...*FLASHBACK* Back in the middle of the school year, my now and than ex boyfriend Eric were "talking", and since we were on this whole "tell-each-other-everything" thing, he came out and told me that he thought he liked my than best friend Navea. I was pissed off somewhat, but than he got over it because things happened between Navea and I and we stopped talking. So blah blah, the year goes on and Eric and I keep talking, one thing leads to another, and we just flat out stop talking like Navea and I did; this is nothing new for Eric and I this happens on a daily basic...well it did. So, than a few days ago, my younger sister tells me, that Eric and Navea are going out...^%$#@^&*! Now mind you Navea was my best friend so I told her a lot about Eric when I was with him, and when I was with him, she made him seem so horrible, saying I could do better, that he wasn't good for me, that he couldn't dress well, and all this stuff. And Eric, would talk about Navea to me, because he was also my best guy friend and when Navea would fight, he would be there to listen, and take my side. They know NOTHING about the other, Navea doesn't know half the things I know about that boy, it's like how dare you go out with my ex-boyfriend. I don't care that we stopped talking, or that she and I weren't on the best of terms, I still considered her my sister, someone who had my back and what does she do with that trust? She takes it and throws it in my face by DATING MY EX-BOYFRIEND?! And than trying to keep it from me, but telling my younger sister, talking about "Don't tell Nicole, I don't want it to start drama..." You were starting drama by telling it to my SISTER...Ahh, horrible. So, you know what, I'm very happy she couldn't look me dead in the eye, because at least that gives me some sense that she knows what she's doing is wrong. I just can't believe her, wow is all I have to say. Unforgivable, sista, unforgivable.
It's gonna be alright though, I'm gonna work through all this, and things are gonna work out. Someday in the future, I will find the perfect guy, one that will respect me and show me a good time, I'll find him...
And Navea dear, if you by some chance are reading this...Enjoy Eric, yes I'm hurt you would go behind my back and do something like this, but the way you truly are was bound to come out sooner or later, and it's cool. Have a nice life dear, maybe we'll cross paths again soon someday, but for right now...I have nothing more to say to you. And Eric...Ha ha, I have nothing I want to say to you at all.
I'll leave this on a high note, I was asked out twice, but I'm still waiting for Mr. Speed...OH, the nickname, ha ha. I call him Mr. Speed because he is a beast at track, he could even beat me, ha ha. We have so much in common, track, reading, height, dreams...ahhh, and he's cute! I'm waiting on him, wouldn't it be funny if he was waiting on me, lol.
Leaving on a high note,
Nik.
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