Who Have I Become?

I've come to hate this person I've become. I can't stand it; myself. These choices I'm making, the things I'm allowing myself to do, the people I'm trying to fit in with. I can't take anymore. I'm sick of the pressure, and even more than that...I'm sick of the people that are causing the pressure. Why oh why, have I become what I have? I can't remember when I actually became this new person, can't remember when I made that wrong turn down the road of life. But, I'm desperately trying to find my way back. I'm just afraid, that I'm so far gone; so lost that I can't be helped, or found for that matter. I guess I'm finally realizing that I need guidance, directions...help.

-NDM-

"God help those who do not help themselves."
-Wilson Mizner