You know...the more I think about my talk with Eric last night, the more I think it was the wrong thing to do. I can't get what we talked about out my head. I thought I was ready to face the music, and to face what's really happening...but I defiantly wasn't. I mean, GOD, that was my boyfriend, my bestfriend, my everything. And now he's head over heels for my bestfriend, that doesn't know crap about him. Ah, but I know that if they weren't together, and if things went the way things always go, he'd be chasing after me, but I'd be unwilling to slow my pace, and let him catch up. All of this is so confusing, did I want him or not? Is she better than me or not? I wish I had all the answers, but nothing's ever that easy. I think I need to just keep my distance from them. I'm just not ready to face the two of them, or build either of our relationships. I just need to discover me first, and move past the past. Because according to a former friend of mine, I live in the past, and that hinders me from embracing the present. Hmm, maybe so, but either way, no one knows me better than me. This, this is going to be harder than I thought...
Trapped in the past,
Nik.
heyy! gurl it's little bit i loved todays ebtry i think what your friend said was so true don't live on the past because GOD has so much for u in the future just keep pushing i know it will hurt but think god has the perfect man for u just know that eric wasn't the one 4 u
ReplyDeleteTruly Chosen!<3