The 411: 8/29/09

Hello everyone, sorry for the lack of posts over the course of a few days...I've actually been on the site, I just haven't had anything of interest to blog about. So I just figured I'd start typing, and hopefully my creative juices will being to flow...It seems like it's beginning to work. Well, I guess I'll give a run down of my week. It's been interesting, a bit overwhelming, and a tad unnerving. Basically school is school, and that's all there is to it. I dropped my Honors Chemistry class, because I didn't think I could handle the work, but part of me thinks I might have just been scared, or lazy. Either way, I'll be in regular ol' Chemistry, which will still be a challenge, but one I'll be able to handle and complete. I started choir, which is nice, I enjoy singing, regardless of what others may think, ha. Choir is actually a lot of fun, along with having it every other day, and having my friends in that class, it's great. I'm going to be doing a lot of new things this year, what with choir, swimming, and track. This year will be a good one, regardless of how things start out, things are gonna get better, I know that for sure.

I recently saw my ex, and my ex-bestfriend, his now girlfriend. It's funny, because I saw them both on the same day, which was weird, because normally I only run into his girlfriend. But I saw him in the hallways Friday, he looked the same. Same ol' tall self, haha. Our eyes met, and I'm not sure if he caught this, but I sorta laughed to myself...I tried not to laugh of course, but I couldn't really help it, but I had to just cheer myself up, keep myself collected and together. I mean really...I went out with him? Not saying there was anything wrong with him, I'm not saying that at all, because I know there's someone out there for him, that is gonna love him for him! However, I can't believe that I allowed myself to get so caught up in our relationship. I can't believe that I let that relationship rule my now love life. It's almost like from that one relationship, I'm so much more caution than need be. I can't really help it though, I'm just saving myself and my emotions for a guy that is worth my time, someone that is going to just as overly cautious as me, and looking for a girl that is worth his time. He's out there, I know it. He may not be the guy I'm with, but at least he's close to it. We're on the same page, and even though things have been slightly rocky, we're working on things. We're taking things slow, we're not so quick to break up, we're both slow to anger, and quick to listen to the other person's feelings. So he may not be there yet, but he's getting there; and the same goes for me. Actually, not that I'm...hm, never mind, I don't wanna jinx anything.

I'm gonna go, I'll try and check in again tomorrow.

Leaving,
Nik.