I’ve returned! Let me apologize now, for the post underneath this post I’m currently writing. I wrote that to, two boys, however, I didn’t mean to take up my blog space with that. I might delete it later, but knowing me…probably won’t. That night was a disgrace, I wish things hadn’t happened that way. I really do, and now that I look back at it, and have had time to reflect upon it…what was the point of all that? What is the point of all this fighting between the three of us? Yeah, she’s dating my ex-boyfriend, but so what, lol! That shouldn’t mean we can’t be friends! Maybe it’d be a little awkward, but it’s better than nothing. It’s probably WAY too late for us to become friends, but we should be able to stand being in the same school with one another. That conversation from Saturday got me thinking…It just sparked my interest about everything, is all. I’m really just completely finished with the whole situation, and it’s taken until now for me to really realize that I am at peace with all that happened, and what is still going to happen between us.
Moving on though…today has been a good day. Not much to really report. Ryan and I swapped numbers, YAY! I haven’t texted him yet, that’s in the making. Danta, and I broke up yesterday, it was a mutual thing. However, he doesn’t seem to understand that and seems to be trying to convince me to give him another chance. I’m pretty much finished with long distance relationships though. They never workout in my favor. I just don’t think I’ve been in a strong enough relationship that can withstand the strain of not seeing each other, or talking everyday. Other than all that, nothing else is up. I’m just relaxing, enjoying my homework(less) evening. But I 
wanted to let you know how things were going, and to apologize for the letter to the young men. I’m really enjoying this font btw, I’ve defiantly fallen in love with it, I think I’ve found the font for the rest of my blogs, YAY! Throw a smile on your face for me guys, cause I’m realizing that things aren’t always going to go the way you expect them to, or want them for that matter. You just have to take life as it comes, and enjoy what you can. Life is what you make it, if you don’t do anything with your life-if you don’t go out for that team, or sing in that play, or talk to that guy/girl-when are you planning to? Just live life to it’s fullest, not tomorrow, not next week, TODAY. 
I’ve also realized that I defiantly want to become a psychiatrist, a pediatric neuropsychiatric to be exact; which is someone who studies organic causes for mental symptomology and disorders in children. If that doesn’t work though, I’ll just be a plain ol’ child psychiatrist. Anyway…I feel like that’s my calling; to do unto others, that which wasn’t done for me. I want to save a little girl’s life, or place a little boy on the right path. I want to make a difference in someone’s life, even if that means devoting my life and time to do so. That’s my plan, just have to stay on the right path, to get my dreams! Boy, am I excited for what the future and GOD have in store for me!
Pondering the future,
Nik.
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