The 411: 9/24/09

So, I’m sitting here listening to my father talk, and maybe it’s just me but I feel belittled? I just feel like the way he talks to me is making me feel incompetent? Now, we’ve NEVER had a good relationship. I mean there are plenty of times where we get along, but those aren’t frequent. I just can’t connect with him like I can connect with the rest of my family. Probably because he isn’t the same with me when he’s around the rest of my family. Like he’ll hold a conversation with one of my cousins, but when I’m trying to talk to him, he has no interest. Which is probably why I don’t take what he says serious. All these promises and things he wants to do, I just let go in one ear and out the other. Doesn’t matter to me either way, because they’ll probably never come to the light. I’m just ready for college, I’m ready for a new outlook on life. I’m so desperately longing to live the life I’ve always wanted to. Where is the fast forward button on life when you need it?

It’s been a long week, thank the Lord tomorrow is Friday! I’ll be spending my Friday night with my girls. We’re taking Adrienne out for her birthday. Saturday is some concert their going to, but I won’t be attending that. Basically that’s it, I should be studying for my “Elements Quiz” tomorrow for Chemistry, don’t really feel like it though. (I mean who ever feels like studying?!) And wouldn’t you know it, my Chemistry teacher feels I should be placed back in Honors Chemistry! He says the way I’m working, and the grades I’m getting show I need to be “challenged”. Guess switching was a waste; either way he’s going to be “evaluating” me, and than he’ll make his decision later on. Oh, and I have an appointment with my neurologist Monday, hopefully everything goes well.

<---This picture made me smile! I was searching for a picture to add to my blog, and came across this one. I’m not sure why, but when I saw this I couldn’t help but smile. Hope it has the same effect on you!

However, I’ll have to catch you all on the flip side, lol! And remember to smile because things are never really as bad as they seem!

Optimistic,

Nik.