Why Do You Hate Me So?

So, I’m sitting here trying to figure out why the world is so cold. Why the world is so ruthless? Why the world can careless about your feelings, or what you’re going through; the world only cares about itself. As long as the world is fine, than nothing else matters. The world is one of the most selfish things I’ve ever known. However, I can’t say that the world and I never got along. The world and I were best buddies. I had his back, but it seems he wasn’t willing to return that favor. The world was my right-hand companion, we were like two peas in a pod. Now the world and I are like my pinky and thumb, like swimming in the winter. It just blows my mind, how the world will chew and spit you out. How, it’ll trip you up, and not even glance back to see how badly you’re bruised up. It’s funny because no one else is quite like the world! The world doesn’t need to say anything for you to realize that you’re not wanted. The world doesn’t need to stare you down, for you to realize that he hates you. The world doesn’t need to talk bad behind your back, for you to realize he could careless about what you hear him say. The world doesn’t need to do anything out of the ordinary to break you. And yet, we still find ourselves running back to it over, and over, and over again. The world is defiantly one of kind. 

*Below you’ll see a poem I wrote way back when. It’s funny, I took the world back, knowing how horrible he was, knowing how badly I would be hurt again from him, and what happened? Fell right back on my butt, where I should have stayed. Oh how quickly things can change! And before you realize it, you’re right back at square one; right where you started.

 

The world needed me, and I needed it.
Scratch that.
I needed it, but it didn't need me.
Ever hear the saying "The world stops for no one?"
I've learned that first hand, as I'm sure many of you will or have learned.
The world is a cold place.
Ready to hear all your secrets, than spill them for everyone to know.
Ready to praise you when you've done right, than turn it's back when you've screwed up.
But play your cards right, and you might make it out alive.
Always remember this:
The world doesn't need me.
And it doesn't need you.
But we need it.
Funny how life works out isn't it?
-NDM-
*Written 11/18/08

Waiting on the world to change,

Nik.