Watch yourself honey.

Hey there! Yet again, I have to apologize for my lack of posts. I've been pretty busy with school. Summer is defiantly over, school is in FULL SWING, lol! It's been going pretty well though, my classes are going very good, and my study habits have defiantly improved, which is a plus. To be honest, I've been having some serious writer's block. Which is what I'm putting the blame on for posts; or lack there of. Not quite sure why though, like even before I started this post, I had to force myself to even click the "New Post" link, crazy right?

Anywho, I'm heading to the neurologist at the end of the month, I'm so glad too, because the headaches have been more frequent, and haven't been slacking up; plus the meds aren't doing JACK...So off I go, to get tests done and all that jazz. I'm not all that nervous, though my Grandfather did have a cancerous tumor on his brain at one point, and has to take meds for that everyday, plus my dad was in the hospital for weeks after a blood vessel burst inside his head, when I was younger...so that makes me alittle nervous that I may have some genetic thing.

Yeah, that's basically it, I guess...not one of my more exciting posts, I know. Well I'm going to my high school's 1st football game of the season tonight, that should be exciting! I'm hoping our football team can go farther than it did last year, I'm STOKED for this up and coming football season! Oh, did I tell you I'm starting swim team this year? I'm alittle nervous, cause I've never actually swam competitively, but I swam when I was younger, and enjoy doing it, so I decided to do preseason. So starting September 8th, I'll officially be in swim mode. So that'll be something new, plus it'll help me stay in shape/get ready for track and field this summer.

Oh, and you know what's funny? I've started seeing them more than ever. I mean, I'm talking seeing them together EVERY FREAKING DAY. I just thought that was too funny, like really? EVERYDAY?! It's just this weird feeling I get when I see them together, its like a hate/pity/angry feeling. Part of me is hoping their happy with their relationship, yet the other part of me is hoping to see it fail, because it basically sucks the way things went down between us. I'm still trying to grasp the thought of losing my BESTFRIEND over a lousy boy? Really Navea`? I'd never expect that of you, never ever, I'm talking not in a million years. But I guess I should have seen the signs when you went out with Stephen. I didn't mind that cause he wasn't my 1st love, but still you never once talked to me about that, didn't even see how I felt that you were dating one of my ex's? I would of come to you if I liked one of your ex's. OH WAIT! I FORGOT...MY OPINION DOESN'T MATTER...WELL YOU KNOW WHAT TRICK? FREAKING KICK ROCKS W/MY SLOPPY SECONDS.

And if you're reading this honey, that (^^) is what I'd say to you if you tried to step to me. And please believe that if you step to me...you fittin' to get ROCKEd. So, keep running your mouth honey, keep swapping spit with Eric, and acting like you don't see me walking by you in the hallways, cause shady crappy things like what you guys did won't last long; "what's done in the dark, comes to the light..."

Ha, well that's what was on my mind, just had to get it all out, I feel much better now...I'm defiantly sick of not being able to speak my mind when I want to though. Like being afraid of what others may think of what I've got to say...that's gonna change, best believe that.

Feeling confident,
Nik.